My last Thetahealing session was extremely successful; in that one hour we covered absolutely all of my doubts, fears, resentments, and anger towards God and removed those beliefs, as well as working on my own egoic issues of not wanting to give up control and let go of the past. In the following 2 weeks I noticed that even though I did get sad over my current heartbreak, it was the first time in 8 months that I hadn’t cried over it. My heart had instantly healed a few several degrees in that one session, which to me is an absolute miracle. And I also harbor no more hate towards God; I’m now able to work the Creator, not against him. What a relief!
The next session is going to focus on more of my ego and constant resistance towards life, which is all mental. All negativity stems from the mind, which will continually create suffering if you are run by it. I realized in a flash of insight that I am run by my mind, which is separated into 2 main parts: the conscious mental mind, located in the brain, and the subconscious, which is located in the body. The subconscious is 80% more powerful than your thinking mind, and its programs are what run your life. This whole time I have been trying, mostly unsuccessfully, to treat each mind separately. For example, I would do EFT on my body and then listen to Holosync Meditation c.d’s for my brain. It finally clicked that I don’t really need to think of my minds as separate, but treat them as one, for they are inextricably connected. Whatever one continually thinks becomes programmed in the subconcious.
The way to change these programs is to change one’s attitudes towards life and become more present and quit resisting everything that happens in life. Resisting keeps negative patterns in your mind and body, but when you let go and relax and surrender to the now, you are able to rise above the automatic thinking patterns and choose how you want to relate to life. In that moment more spiritual energy flows to you, which also helps you deal in handling your life situations. The beauty of it, and the work it also requires, is that you have the ability to change each situations as it comes up by letting go and releasing all your negativity towards it, moment by moment, as soon as you think the thought or feel the emotion in your body. It becomes a habit to continually release, thereby letting go of bad energy on the spot instead of storing it all up inside.
My next session will also focus on my extreme self-conciousness, inadequacy beliefs, and social anxiety issues. They run the gamut from inferiority to superiority; from seperateness to not wanting to be bothered. I have a huge problem of people almost never returning my calls; even my healer forgot to call me for our last 2 sessions! And she said that first time it wasn’t her fault; I must’ve gotten the date wrong! ( I didn’t). The second time, which was 2 days ago, I just gave up waiting for her call and contacted another healer who lives nearby and asked to do a session with her, and she agreed. I love reading her website; it seems like she understands everything I’ve gone through because her life was similar.
Right now I’ve decided to copy everything, that spoke to me in Eckhart Tolles’ book The Power of Now. I picked it up again wanting to gain more information about the ego for my healing sessions, and got reminded of everything I forgot about resisting life. So these quotes are references for me whenever I want to be reminded yet don’t have the book on me. My book is inundated with pink highlighter marks.
- Say “yes” to life and see how life says yes to you
- There is no salvation in time. You cannot be free in the future. Presence is the key to freedom, so you can only be free now. As soon as you honor the present moment, all unhappiness and struggle dissolve, and life begins to flow with joy and ease. When you act out of present moment awareness, whatever you do becomes imbued with a sense of quality, care, and love, even the most simple action.
- When the compulsive striving away from the Now ceases, the joy of Being flows into everything you do. You no longer depend on the future for fulfillment and satisfaction.
- As long as you make an identity for yourself out of the pain, you cannot become free of it. As long as part of your sense of self is invested in your emotional pain, you will unconsciously resist or sabotage every attempt that you make to heal that pain. Why? Quite simply, because you want to keep your Self intact, and the pain has become an essential part of you. The only way to overcome it is to make it conscious.
- All you really need to do is accept this moment fully. You are then at ease in the here and now and at ease with yourself. When you live in complete acceptance of what is-which is the only sane way to live-there is no “goo” or “bad” in your life anymore. this “allowing to be” takes you beyond the mind with its resistance patterns that create the positive-negative polarities.
- Since mind and resistance are synonymous, acceptance immediately frees you from mind dominance and thus reconnects you with being.
- When a condition or situation that the mind has attached itself to and identified with changes or disappears, the mind cannot accept it. It wll cling to the disappearing condition and resist the change. Things and conditions can give you pleasure, but they cannot give you joy. Nothing can give you joy. Joy is uncaused and arises from within as the joy of Being. It is an essential part of the nner state of peace, the state that has been called the peace of God.
- RELEASE RESISTANCE: All inner resistance is experienced as negativity in one form or another. All negativity is resistance. Once you have identified with some form of negativity, you do not want to let go, and on a deeply unconcious level, you do not want positive change.
- All irritations and bad energy can be transformed into spritual practice. Instead of having a wall of resistance insdie you that gets constantly hit by things tahht “should not be happening,” let everything pass through you.
- When you are in seeking mode: Don’t look for peace. Don’t look for any other state than the one you are in now; otherwise, you will set up inner conflict and unconscious resistance. Forgive yourself fo r not being at peace. The moment you completely accept you non-peace, its becomes traansmuted into peace.
- Surrender is the simple but profound wisdom of yielding to rather than opposing the flow of life. It is relinquishing inner resistance to what is. Its to accept the present moment unconditionally, and without reservation. Inner resistance is to say “no” to what is, through mental judgement and emotional negativity. It becomes particularly pronounced when things go “wrong,” which means that there is a gap between the demands or rigid expectations of your mind and what is. That is the pain gap. If you have lived long enough, you will know that things “go wrong: quite often. It is precisely at those times that surrender needs to be practiced if you wnat to eliminate pain and sorrow from your life. Resistance is the mind.
- Resistance is not surrender. You don’t have to accept an undesirable or unpleasant life situation. You fully recognize that you want to get out f it. You then narrow your attention down to the present moment without labeling it in any way. You then take action.
- Non-surrender hardens your psychological form, the shell of the ego, and so creates a strong sense of separateness.
- Your mind can’t intellectualize peace or being present. It’s impossible. Focus on your breath, your being, and let go.